Stellababy, I'm so sorry. Coloring this really was emotionally difficult. I sketched it some time ago after hearing Beautiful Disaster pop up on my iTunes shuffle, back around her birthday in September. But this piece had no place on her birthday, so I set it aside in favor of something happier. I realized it was Spirit Day already and that this was probably the most ideal time to post something like this without it being a total left-field punch to the feels.
That being said, StellaGale's story is foreseeably the most emotional (even more than SamSara, wouh) of the four. Stella is the most emotionally diverse character I've ever worked with/will work with. I can already tell it's going to be a big bucket of feels. Unfortunately, I'll have to leave you to theorize on your own... because it is bedtime.. and also spoilers. But mostly bedtime.
Offtopic: Wikipedia lists Spirit Day as October 20th, which is what we dated our 2011 PT piece as, but this year it's being advertised as the 19th. Any reason for that discrepancy? Is it both? Does it matter? u//u
Drawn on paper, lined/colored in SAI, text in PS7. Thank you for the comments, favorites, and watches! And I'm sorry for probably making some of you cry.
oh this sucks... on multiple levels like 1.what the hell is wrong with the world and all the hatred and abuse??? TT_TT OH MY FEELS, OH MY ANGER! and 2. you are prepared to give us such an awesome story, but it's not coming any soon, right? *SOBS SOBS*
I can't remember when I favorited this, but I definitely remember just glancing at it and thinking that it was a very nice picture, and then roving through the rest of your gallery.
And then later. Much, much later.
And then later, I come back and observe it in length and listen to the song and read everyone else's comments and just...SOBBED. I just sort of lost it at the bruises, especially at the placement at the neck and the wrist. And I'm getting an inkling of what I think her story may entail and it brought back some bad (and unfortunately, still relatively recent) memories.
The song really does add more depth to the understanding of this piece. Also reduces one to a huge pile of FEELS. Just...wanting to love so much...even...if it hurts.
Oh God, I just want to cry.
I get the feeling that Stella and Gale's story is going to hit home for a lot of people, which I think is important because it will resonate with a lot of people as a story of hope despite...well, everything. I apologize for being vague; I'm kind of a babbling mess of mental incoherence.
I'd really like to thank you for drawing this. It's not only beautiful and really shows a lot of your skill visually, but is also really emotive, which I adore and makes me even more anxious for Stella's story.
Ahhh, deepest apologies for the late reply, but I couldn't let it go without a reply. I'm both so sorry that it stirs still-tender wounds, but I'm also really touched that you can feel it. I want to do all I can to realistically express these kinds of issues and then show the incredible healing process/strengthening afterward, because Stella is so much stronger than she realizes, and so are so many people that experience this same thing, just never seeing it in themselves. StellaGale's story is definitely a lot more mature in nature, in experiences and lifestyles, but the core issues can reach absolutely anyone... and that's why I have to do it.
Aanndd there's my return of babbling. I'm so grateful how much you can connect to this piece, you have no idea. Thank you for the wonderful comment... And you're so very welcome.
argh Stella babyyyy ;~~~; why are you such a bucket of feelings and tears and makeup and gorgeousness I can't deal with it omg who would be nasty enough to bruise you ;^; But argh Bee I love love love how you've pulled off the half-half contrast. It's like just cover up half and you get gorgeous Stella looking all together and kinda alluring and then your heart breaks when you see the other half because she's suddenly not but omggggg bruises ;~~~; I feel like I'm going to spend most of their story huddled in a corner crying and trying to console myself that it ends well
ahhh lac sorry for the late comment but aughh i'm sorry I had to plague you with the achey feels /)8A8/) /hugs and gurgles Their story is so fucking *SOB* but the amount of love poured into these two newly-wed style lovebirds will probably make up for it tenfold I promise
I may have already commented on this, in fact I think I have, but I came back to this and just now noticed her skin on the disaster side. She's bruised. Bee, if you guys have thought up what I am thinking up about Stella, then I am going to sob when her story comes out. All I want to do is take her home, run her a nice warm bath, give her a blanket, make her some nice hot cocoa, and give her a cuddle while we watch chick flicks. She's so beautiful, but she obviously has so much to deal with, poor love. I love it, but at the same time I can't look at it for too long. Powerful, but terrible. Kind of like those pictures you see of starving children on the UNICEF website. Poor baby. Please give her a happy ending, Bee. She deserves it, I think. (By the way, beautiful song)
Ahhh, I hope what we're generally feeling out for her story isn't too overwhelmingly close/far off from what you're thinking... X///x; She'll definitely get that warm bath, blanket and coco, and so many much needed cuddles I don't blame you for not being able to look too long, I get the same way with a lot of personal pieces for my OCs like this. I just end up feeling too much for them, like a parent///; She will definitely get that happy ending. She's a lot stronger than she knows.
STELLABABY WHO HURT YOU TELL ME AND I WILL MAKE THEM PAY ;_; But seriously, ouch. Having figured out a bit about Stella's story, I am already flinching because I know the kind of abuse and torment she probably has to deal with. It's unfair, and it's horrible, but it's painfully realistic. The contrast between the two sides is heartbreaking. Even on her beautiful, 'good' side, her arms are hugging her torso, defending against attacks and caressing the beauty she's worked so hard to create and maintain. On the disaster side, all of that beauty has been attacked, from lipstick to clothes to hair and sk- skin. Bruises. I didn't see the bruises. Her shoulders, her wrist-
*carefully stands up* *cracks knuckles* Stella, give me a name, I swear. They won't hurt you again. *some time later, once I've calmed down* I was going to say that her body language is what really breaks my heart in the disaster side. Trying to put on the straps of likely-ruined clothing is something many abuse victims will be familiar with - trying to regain at least a little dignity, even when everything's broken and you've been humiliated. It makes you feel ashamed, and that's something no one should be forced to feel about who they are. Sooo... yeah. StellaGale will probably leave me fuming in impotent rage, because usually I break down in feels when something tragic happens to characters I like, but when it's abuse like this, I get angry. Anyone trying to make another person scared or ashamed of who they are makes me angry. I'm usually indecisive and try to please other people as much as possible, but I learned in my self-defense class that under certain sets of conditions, I will not hold back. It just sucks that nothing we fans can do will help Stella, and that other people in her situation live through this without being heard. An excellent (if sad) piece. Your lines and colors are beautiful here, as is the symbolism. Great job!
yeahhh Q__Q ahh you of all people are probably on the right track about everything ever. I will admit that I honestly don't know how much we'll touch on it, because I don't want to oversaturate any one story in too much darker subject matter, but I feel it is important to at least address to an extent.
and here we go reading your amazing insight and causing me so much aching oh my gosh. trust me god i can't even begin to express how Gale must feel It's so devastating to think of what lengths she'll go to to feel wanted. Even when she knows better. I feel the shame on her behalf. But on the bright side, I'm so excited to be able to use this horrible circumstance and turn it into a motivation for her entire character. Something she uses as a vice to help her become strong, and rise above these lowly things she thought she was worth. I think she'll need a bit of support in other characters, for sure- but I ultimately want this to be an empowering story for women like her.
Ahhh, thank you as always, amanda! I'll be sifting through your glorious comments on my other works slowly but surely, since I can't help but always wanna reply.
I want to say I love this pic, but I really can't. I've got this thing about loving things that make me cry, unless it's from happiness. I will, however, say that this is really beautiful and powerful and actually kinda scary and purple is such a good color for this and for her andIcan'teven- God, those bruises are NOT okay and I'm very upset right now so I'm just gonna drown myself in some music.
Aww, hey... It's more like it just elicited a really deep reaction from you, something you could connect with or understand the emotion behind; It moved you. I mean, humbly assuming, anyway. It definitely moved me when working on it. Thinking of all the context behind it is painful but it's because it means so much. It's hard writing characters with hardships, but it really makes me feel so much more. I'm so sorry if it made you too upset or triggered anything and I hope you're okay. Apologies for the super late reply, too... But thank you for sharing your thoughts.
Awww.... Poor Stella ;-; don't cry... It's breaking my heart ;-; but this really amazing make me excited for PT and makes me like Stella more I really like how both side a similar yet different even the lighting, good job !!!!
I was listening to this song called "Spectrum" by this guy Matthew Koma... And the feels man... ALL OF DEM FEELS MANN!!!!! I was sitting here like: OMG NO STELLY NO I LOVE I'LL KICK THEM IN THE FACE DON'T CRY (my cat was like "...Wutt") And I started crying. All my feels are in this picture. ALL OF DEM FEELS. ....This picture is more angsty then Sara...Stella>Sara(omg you're gonna kill me for that joke)
First off, it's fine(I follow you on Tumblr, so feels for you and Ty!!XD) and yeah, beautiful right? I was just being a stalker on your gallery and then that song, started when I clicked the pic and...yeah. Giant pile of mush. You're very welcome!
Aw, I was waiting for a picture like this. I remember her crying at the bottom of the "Meet Stella" picture and wondering when there'd be more of that. Her being my favorite, I just wanna hop into the screen and hug her. Gah. <3