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:bulletpurple: Beautiful Disaster - Jon McLaughlin :bulletpurple:


She would change everything for happy ever after

Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster

She just needs someone to take her home


She's just the way she is

...But no one's told her that's okay.


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Picture This
By *Tyshea and *Ai-Bee
A collection of stories about love between girls.

Picture This on Tumblr
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Stellababy, I'm so sorry. Coloring this really was emotionally difficult. I sketched it some time ago after hearing Beautiful Disaster pop up on my iTunes shuffle, back around her birthday in September. But this piece had no place on her birthday, so I set it aside in favor of something happier. I realized it was Spirit Day already and that this was probably the most ideal time to post something like this without it being a total left-field punch to the feels. :stare:

That being said, StellaGale's story is foreseeably the most emotional (even more than SamSara, wouh) of the four. Stella is the most emotionally diverse character I've ever worked with/will work with. I can already tell it's going to be a big bucket of feels. Unfortunately, I'll have to leave you to theorize on your own... because it is bedtime.. and also spoilers. But mostly bedtime.

Offtopic: Wikipedia lists Spirit Day as October 20th, which is what we dated our 2011 PT piece as, but this year it's being advertised as the 19th. Any reason for that discrepancy? Is it both? Does it matter? u//u

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Drawn on paper, lined/colored in SAI, text in PS7.
Thank you for the comments, favorites, and watches! :dalove:
And I'm sorry for probably making some of you cry.
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Blackstork999 Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2013
Amazing.
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much.. :blushes:
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irida21 Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013
oh this sucks... on multiple levels like 1.what the hell is wrong with the world and all the hatred and abuse??? TT_TT OH MY FEELS, OH MY ANGER! and 2. you are prepared to give us such an awesome story, but it's not coming any soon, right? *SOBS SOBS*
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Sadly it will be quite some time before we get to seriously work on it :'( I'm sorry! I want to tell their story so bad, too.
*HUGS AND CONSOLES* :hug:
Thank you though!
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Eternal-Voice Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2012
I can't remember when I favorited this, but I definitely remember just glancing at it and thinking that it was a very nice picture, and then roving through the rest of your gallery.

And then later. Much, much later.

And then later, I come back and observe it in length and listen to the song and read everyone else's comments and just...SOBBED. I just sort of lost it at the bruises, especially at the placement at the neck and the wrist. And I'm getting an inkling of what I think her story may entail and it brought back some bad (and unfortunately, still relatively recent) memories.

The song really does add more depth to the understanding of this piece. Also reduces one to a huge pile of FEELS. Just...wanting to love so much...even...if it hurts.

Oh God, I just want to cry.

I get the feeling that Stella and Gale's story is going to hit home for a lot of people, which I think is important because it will resonate with a lot of people as a story of hope despite...well, everything. I apologize for being vague; I'm kind of a babbling mess of mental incoherence.

I'd really like to thank you for drawing this. It's not only beautiful and really shows a lot of your skill visually, but is also really emotive, which I adore and makes me even more anxious for Stella's story.

Thank you, thank you, thank you.
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Ahhh, deepest apologies for the late reply, but I couldn't let it go without a reply.
I'm both so sorry that it stirs still-tender wounds, but I'm also really touched that you can feel it. I want to do all I can to realistically express these kinds of issues and then show the incredible healing process/strengthening afterward, because Stella is so much stronger than she realizes, and so are so many people that experience this same thing, just never seeing it in themselves. StellaGale's story is definitely a lot more mature in nature, in experiences and lifestyles, but the core issues can reach absolutely anyone... and that's why I have to do it.

Aanndd there's my return of babbling. :blushes: I'm so grateful how much you can connect to this piece, you have no idea. Thank you for the wonderful comment... And you're so very welcome. :huggle: :heart:
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lacrymosus Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012
argh Stella babyyyy ;~~~; why are you such a bucket of feelings and tears and makeup and gorgeousness I can't deal with it omg who would be nasty enough to bruise you ;^;
But argh Bee I love love love how you've pulled off the half-half contrast. It's like just cover up half and you get gorgeous Stella looking all together and kinda alluring and then your heart breaks when you see the other half because she's suddenly not but omggggg bruises ;~~~;
I feel like I'm going to spend most of their story huddled in a corner crying and trying to console myself that it ends well
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
ahhh lac sorry for the late comment but aughh i'm sorry I had to plague you with the achey feels /)8A8/) /hugs and gurgles
Their story is so fucking *SOB* but the amount of love poured into these two newly-wed style lovebirds will probably make up for it tenfold I promise :heart: :huggle:
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kidflashsgirl Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012
I may have already commented on this, in fact I think I have, but I came back to this and just now noticed her skin on the disaster side.
She's bruised. Bee, if you guys have thought up what I am thinking up about Stella, then I am going to sob when her story comes out. All I want to do is take her home, run her a nice warm bath, give her a blanket, make her some nice hot cocoa, and give her a cuddle while we watch chick flicks. She's so beautiful, but she obviously has so much to deal with, poor love.
I love it, but at the same time I can't look at it for too long. Powerful, but terrible. Kind of like those pictures you see of starving children on the UNICEF website. Poor baby. Please give her a happy ending, Bee. She deserves it, I think.
(By the way, beautiful song)
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
(Sorry for the late reply! :blush:)

Ahhh, I hope what we're generally feeling out for her story isn't too overwhelmingly close/far off from what you're thinking... X///x; She'll definitely get that warm bath, blanket and coco, and so many much needed cuddles :heart:
I don't blame you for not being able to look too long, I get the same way with a lot of personal pieces for my OCs like this. I just end up feeling too much for them, like a parent///;
She will definitely get that happy ending. She's a lot stronger than she knows. :blushes:

:huggle: :heart:
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kidflashsgirl Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013
(Bee, don't worry about it. You were kind of sort of in the arms of the love of your life. I think we can overlook it just this once <3)

God, poor love. This is killing me.
WHY DO YOU DO IT TO YOURSELF, BEE?! *sobs* Poor babes.
Good, she deserves it <3

<3<3<3<3
(How do you do those huggy things?)
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
OMGOSH I GUESS *blushes forever sdfgh*

Ahaha, you cutie! Huggy things! :giggle: They're DA's emotes.
(I italicized the colons)
:huggle: is :huggle:, :hug: is :hug:, :glomp: is :glomp:, :tighthug: is :tighthug:

Those are the ones I usually use off the top of my head anyways... :la: You can see the whole list under any comment reply box. ("Emoticons")
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kidflashsgirl Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013
I guess, she says.... I guess my rear end :love:
OKAY LETS DO THIS YOU ARE MY GUINEA PIG HERE PLEASE DONT JUDGE ME.
:huggle: :hug: :glomp: :tighthug:

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
THANK YOU YOU SHALL BE THE RECIPIENT OF MANY OF THESE IN THE NEAR FUTURE
:glomp: :tighthug:

(you've released the beast...)
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
OH MY GOODNESS WHAT HAVE I DONE :la:
AHAHHAHAHA GO FORTH MY DEAR
UNLEASH THE HUGS!
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kidflashsgirl Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013
:glomp: :love:
MUHUHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA I MOST CERTAINLY SHALL.
YOU HAVE CREATED A HUGGLE BEAST.
FLY MY PRETTIES!!!
:glomp: :tighthug: :hug: :love: :love:
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Louveless Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Student Digital Artist
I think I might have a theory about Stella but I don't know if want to spoil it! I love this though, so much freaking emotion :(
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Shhh! I don't want it laying around in the open if you're right! :giggle:
Thank you so much though :blushes:
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Kittengrl39 Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2012
STELLABABY WHO HURT YOU
TELL ME AND I WILL MAKE THEM PAY
;_; But seriously, ouch. Having figured out a bit about Stella's story, I am already flinching because I know the kind of abuse and torment she probably has to deal with. It's unfair, and it's horrible, but it's painfully realistic.
The contrast between the two sides is heartbreaking. Even on her beautiful, 'good' side, her arms are hugging her torso, defending against attacks and caressing the beauty she's worked so hard to create and maintain. On the disaster side, all of that beauty has been attacked, from lipstick to clothes to hair and sk-
skin.
Bruises.
I didn't see the bruises.
Her shoulders, her wrist-


*carefully stands up* *cracks knuckles* Stella, give me a name, I swear. They won't hurt you again.
*some time later, once I've calmed down* I was going to say that her body language is what really breaks my heart in the disaster side. Trying to put on the straps of likely-ruined clothing is something many abuse victims will be familiar with - trying to regain at least a little dignity, even when everything's broken and you've been humiliated. It makes you feel ashamed, and that's something no one should be forced to feel about who they are.
Sooo... yeah. StellaGale will probably leave me fuming in impotent rage, because usually I break down in feels when something tragic happens to characters I like, but when it's abuse like this, I get angry. Anyone trying to make another person scared or ashamed of who they are makes me angry. I'm usually indecisive and try to please other people as much as possible, but I learned in my self-defense class that under certain sets of conditions, I will not hold back. It just sucks that nothing we fans can do will help Stella, and that other people in her situation live through this without being heard.
An excellent (if sad) piece. Your lines and colors are beautiful here, as is the symbolism. Great job!
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
YOU AND ME HONEY LETS GO /GETS OUT METAL BAT

yeahhh Q__Q ahh you of all people are probably on the right track about everything ever. I will admit that I honestly don't know how much we'll touch on it, because I don't want to oversaturate any one story in too much darker subject matter, but I feel it is important to at least address to an extent.

and here we go reading your amazing insight and causing me so much aching oh my gosh.
trust me god i can't even begin to express how Gale must feel
It's so devastating to think of what lengths she'll go to to feel wanted. Even when she knows better. I feel the shame on her behalf. But on the bright side, I'm so excited to be able to use this horrible circumstance and turn it into a motivation for her entire character. Something she uses as a vice to help her become strong, and rise above these lowly things she thought she was worth. I think she'll need a bit of support in other characters, for sure- but I ultimately want this to be an empowering story for women like her.

Ahhh, thank you as always, amanda! I'll be sifting through your glorious comments on my other works slowly but surely, since I can't help but always wanna reply. :blush: :heart: :heart:
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SolanumNigrum Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2012
Oh, no! I see bruises! D: Gale, hurry and make your lovely lady better!

Oh, dear god, my feels~
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Gale will make it better, don't you worry! x//__//x

:huggle: :heart:
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Wolfeyes32 Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
I want to say I love this pic, but I really can't. I've got this thing about loving things that make me cry, unless it's from happiness.
I will, however, say that this is really beautiful and powerful and actually kinda scary and purple is such a good color for this and for her andIcan'teven-
God, those bruises are NOT okay and I'm very upset right now so I'm just gonna drown myself in some music.
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Aww, hey... It's more like it just elicited a really deep reaction from you, something you could connect with or understand the emotion behind; It moved you. I mean, humbly assuming, anyway. It definitely moved me when working on it. Thinking of all the context behind it is painful but it's because it means so much. It's hard writing characters with hardships, but it really makes me feel so much more. :thanks:
I'm so sorry if it made you too upset or triggered anything and I hope you're okay. Apologies for the super late reply, too... But thank you for sharing your thoughts. :huggle:
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Fluffy-Artist Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2012
NO BABY DONT CRY
IF YOU CRY THEN I'LL CRY
POOR CHILD WHO DID THIS TO YOU
(fantastic work, man! the colors and shading are incredible! :D)
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
ahh don't cry, it'll be okay! /)Q//u//Q/)

Thank you so much also! :love: :heart:
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KurtExpress Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Nooo Stellaaaaa whyyyyy are you cryyyingggg???? WHO DID THIS TO YOU? XD
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
WHOEVER THEY ARE THEY'RE GONNA REGRET IT
I WILL PERSONALLY CAMEO IN THEIR STORY AND PUNCH THEM IN THE FACE.

/late reply
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KurtExpress Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
XD
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The-Bails Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2012
gorgeous work as usual! this is absolutely fantastic!
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much! :thanks: :heart:
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LloydPacifist Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2012  Student General Artist
AGH NO STELLA DON'T CRY, EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT

*hugs*

BEE, WHY YOU MAKE ME CRY?

*cries manly tears at the sheer beauty of the picture... and at seeing Stella cry*
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
YES GOOD HUGS ARE GOOD ;//__//;
*joins in hugs*
I'M SORRY I DIDN'T MEAN TO
if it makes you feel better, drawing this was torture? /sob
Apologies for the late reply too ah//;;
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Yuujin1 Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Awww.... Poor Stella ;-; don't cry... It's breaking my heart ;-; but this really amazing :D make me excited for PT and makes me like Stella more :D I really like how both side a similar yet different even the lighting, good job :XD:!!!!
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yeee! I'm glad even a piece like this could make you like stella more! :blush:
Thank youuuu :heart: :heart:
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Yuujin1 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
your welcome :XD:
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lndzbrdn Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
NOOOOOOO YOU GORGEOUS SUPER-MODEL-OF-A-PERFECT-HUMAN-BEING, PLS DON'T CRY, FUFALBLEJGEG-- :+favlove: .____. Mah feeeels
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
adfhdjdgs i know god it's so painful to see her make-up just totally reflect how she feels inside :iconlazycryplz:

thank you for the fave :heart: :heart:
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lndzbrdn Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
you're welcome ;'C
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neofeliss Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2012  Student Digital Artist
WELL WHAT THE HELL. I DIDNT NEED THAT HEART, IT WAS ALREADY BROKEN. *chucks heart out the window*
This is just beautiful. And heartwrenching. And beautiful.
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
*CHASES HEART OUT WINDOW AND GATHERS IT UP* I'M SORRYYYY;; and for the late reply omg /OPENS OLD WOUNDS

Thank youuuu OTL/// :hug: :heart:
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neofeliss Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Student Digital Artist
It's okay - I CAME PREPARED THIS TIME! *wields First Aid kit for Internet Feels*
DON'T BE SORRY IT'S A GOOD KIND OF HURT.
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vai-russ Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2012
Poor Stella.... ;_; YOU'RE SUCH A CRUEL MOMMY.
butseriouslygreatpiecethough
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I AM THE WORST MOMMY AUGH
or just a masochist like o m g these guys tell their own stories and I'm powerless to deny it so I just take it like "Q__Q W-WELL OKAY BUT THAT HURTS MY HEART"

adsfh thank you also :heart: :heart:
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vai-russ Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012
-pets- poor babu, I know how that goes...
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hidansgurl886 Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I was listening to this song called "Spectrum" by this guy Matthew Koma...
And the feels man...
ALL OF DEM FEELS MANN!!!!!
I was sitting here like: OMG NO STELLY NO I LOVE I'LL KICK THEM IN THE FACE DON'T CRY
(my cat was like "...Wutt")
And I started crying.
All my feels are in this picture.
ALL OF DEM FEELS.
....This picture is more angsty then Sara...Stella>Sara(omg you're gonna kill me for that joke)
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hey, oh wow! Sorry for the ridiculously late reply, but I finally got to check out that song you suggested- LOOOVE it! :excited:

I'm sorry I made you cry, gah! :hug: I think Stella's story makes Sara's emotional baggage/angst look so much less serious, to be quite honest. :faint:

Thank you also! Glad you like it- even if it's in that masochistic all-the-feels kinda way. :blush:
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hidansgurl886 Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
First off, it's fine(I follow you on Tumblr, so feels for you and Ty!!XD) and yeah, beautiful right? I was just being a stalker on your gallery and then that song, started when I clicked the pic and...yeah.
Giant pile of mush.
You're very welcome!
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Akiko-san13 Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Aw, I was waiting for a picture like this. I remember her crying at the bottom of the "Meet Stella" picture and wondering when there'd be more of that. Her being my favorite, I just wanna hop into the screen and hug her. Gah. <3
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Ai-Bee Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yeaah, it's hard to avoid another piece like this with her story. I'm so mean to my babies.. :iconlazycryplz:

I'm soooo happy she's your favorite though you have no idea! Hugs would be great :heart:
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